I do not know what to say. It has been a couple days since I have written. Recently I found out about a field trip for the students of my grade. It was a trip to Kentucky and see an eclipse. I was really excited about it and said "What?! This has been on my bucket list and now I get to do it?". The bad news was that this field trip is next school year. Next school year I will no longer be at school. People have been telling me that it shouldn't matter to me and just to forget about it because I will be going to Japan. I agree with what they say. I will be doing something great but this field trip was special. This wasn't any ordinary trip but a High School trip with my fellow classmates. I was bummed out but I can't be. I've been missing some important things for this trip to Japan. I'm trying my best not to complain. Complaining will make me look selfish and like a failure. Bringing everyone down is something I do not want to do. I will be doing my best in succeeding! Thank you to all who are reading my blogs and to those who are supporting me!
All this week I have been telling many people to look at my blog. At first I was scared because I thought that people would think I was being selfish or that I thought I was all that. I first began with my friends and they all told me they would check out my blog and they even congratulated me. Then at one occasion I was talking to my friend about my blog and someone overheard us. She asked me what I was talking about and if I was going to be an exchange student. I told her I was going to be and exchange student and that I had made a blog to share about my experience. I then had the strangest and scariest thought. That was, "Hey, why don't you tell her to check out your blog? You don't really talk to this person at all but it's worth a try right?" Haha. I was so scared but I did it anyway. When I told her about my blog she was interested. I have her the same paper that I was giving my friends with my blog website. What scared me most was if she was going to say no. I was wrong. She told me she'd check it out and she congratulated me as well. This gave me the courage to tell others. Eventually I was able to tell not only people a don't talk to as much but also to people I have never talked to. Then the news started spreading. People were walking up to me and were saying, "Are you Elizabeth? Are you going to Japan as an exchange student?" I told them yes and was bewildered as to how these people knew me! I felt like the most popular person at school; although, I eventually had to come back to reality and accept the fact that I'm not popular at all. Once I told the people who I was and that they were correct they too congratulated me! I was so afraid of telling people to check out my blog and to tell them that me, a student from there school who barely talks or is know , was going to be an exchange student. I was afraid of what others were going to say. But, after this week I feel a bit more confident. I thank all who are checking out my blog and who are telling others about it. I also thank you especially for helping me become a little more confident and coming out my shell a little more.
As of today it has been two days since I have been told as to where I'll be an inbound student in. I am currently an outbound student right now. An outbound student is one who will be going to a different country. An inbound student is one who has come from another country. There are also students who are rebounds. Rebounds are the ones who have gone to a foreign country and have returned to their home country. We had a Rotary meeting this Saturday and Sunday (March 4 & 5). After a wait of hearing where we would go we finally found out. I, Elizabeth Solis, will be going to...Japan. When I was first told and received my name tag I was really excited. Japan was one of the options as to where I would like to go. I was doing great at the meeting and was learning all kinds of important information, however; when I got home many thoughts were circling my head. What if I don't have a successful exchange like everyone is saying I should? What if I go over there and my host family does not like me? What if I don't learn the language or the culture? What if I begin failing in the classes over in Japan? "What if this..." or "What if that.." were going all over my mind. I knew that I should be thankful about this opportunity that many other students could only dream of doing. While all of this was going through my head I didn't know who to talk to. It felt more like as if nobody would want to hear my problems and that all I would do was just annoy everybody I told. I tried cooling my head and think of what I was saying and thinking. First of all, my parents agreed and have come this far with me to go on this exchange. Not many parents can say, "Why yes of course I will let my son/daughter go to a whole new country that they know nothing about for a whole year! Its the best idea! Nothing like letting go of my child to be all by their selves. Splendid". Second of all, I have this great opportunity! How many people only dream of studying abroad? Third, I have friends who will support me. It may be hard to say good-bye but that does not mean that we didn't have great memories together. Lastly, I will be able to think about my life now. Today at the end of school I missed my bus, not surprising. Haha. As I was walking down the sidewalk I began to think about Logansport, the city in which I live in. We are small but it is very great. There is hidden beauty everywhere in Logansport. Everything I am doing, even the little ones, I was beginning to look at them differently. I had a pizza? Perhaps that might have been the best pizza I have ever tasted. Was the sunrise/sunset beautiful? Maybe. It is something that I might have overlooked in the past but now... I don't. Going to Japan will be life changing. Rotary tells me I will become a different person for the better. I think I already am changing even though its barely the beginning of something extraordinary.