My Rotary jacket is great and all. It's actually really cool…but it can be SOOOOO annoying! It's awkward putting my hands down on my side because of all the pins. Every once in a while I keep dropping at least one. Earlier this week I got into the car and saw something. What was it? My PIN! It was a pin I had received from a German exchange student. What and how did it land in the car??? I don't know. The point is having the jacket is really fun but can also be hard when you get more and more pins…. Well, now it sounds like I hate my jacket. Haha. No, I don't hate my jacket. I actually love it! It's super cool and I am so glad that Rotary makes us have a jacket. It's like a really cool DIY for when you put the pins others give you. Make sense? I think it does. Anyways, if you're planning on being an exchange student watch out with the jacket! Really cool and all but it's not cool anymore when you drop a pin and have to look for it. Anyways, night y'all.
By the way, when do y'all usually read my blogs? I have over 100 of y'all reading a week. I usually post at night or the end of the day because I'm able to recap the whole day. Thanks to all reading my blog! Means a lot!
I am ready to be in Japan already!! Or am I? Who knows? I am pumped to be there already and be square and not a round. Not sure if that made sense but cool. It's still nerve wracking but it's still oh so rad. I am excited to see all there is to Japan. Whether it be big or small, anything will be fine. My mother and I are getting the last of it ready. So nervous but man, I already want to be in Japan. All that goes through my head is, "Just a couple more and you'll be there". Get ready Japan!! Here comes a wild traveler who will not actually be wild and instead tame and not be as cool as she thought she'd be. Ever. Well, this was a quick blog. Now y'all now that I am impatient about my trip to Japan. Hehe. I am excited to go somewhere new. "Adventure is out there!" Sayonara!
Sometimes I like to stop and wonder about life. I begin wondering what it would have been like if I had done something. Sometimes it can also be about what it would have been like if I didn't do something. There are moments in life that when you look back there will be things you regret. I've probably mentioned in past blogs that regret is something I am afraid of. There are regrets of either doing something or not doing something. It's pretty scary. Now you may think "no I don't want to do it" but later you may regret not doing it. I wonder why I think of this. I wonder if others are constantly asking questions to themselves. I wonder if one day I will stop wondering. If that were to come, would I regret not wondering more?
No idea what to write. Days are getting shorter, time is going fast, blah blah blah. I don't want to sound like a broken record. I do miss school though. I miss attending classes and seeing faces I know. Hopefully I will have a good time in Japan. Sayonara!
i realized that I never really talked about exchange. Weird since this whole blog is about exchange. What I mean is that I never really got deep about it. Exchange was something that I longed to do. What I never thought I'd do was worry about it. Thinking about the abroad year seems like forever. It seems like you would be gone for a long time. In reality it goes by fast. At times you feel excited to go and other times you feel like a wreck with your nerves going everywhere. The moments you think that you're actually going to a another country makes you feel like you can do anything. There are also the moments when you think about going to another country makes you feel so small. Exchange gives you many emotions wherever you may be. The application for becoming a youth exchange student made me both nervous and glad. Being accepted gave me great joy but also brought the whole "oh my god. I actually got accepted. Now what…?". Finding out my country was the same. So cool…but wait, I don't know the language. Not so cool…. Meeting new students, new rotarians, new friends. It was all great. Exchange seems scary to many and perhaps even crazy. To me exchange is crazy, but exchange is also a way to learn more about yourself and change. Giving this up would be something I'd regret. If you ever wonder about being an exchange student I suggest you should consider. It is a great opportunity and it is very neat! It seems terrible but it really isn't. I am glad I decided to be an exchange student. Sayonara!
The days seem to be going by fast. A minute begins to feel like a second. An hour begins to feel like a minute. Lately for the past two weeks I have been waking up at 3 in the morning. I don't know why. I just suddenly wake up and lay in bed wondering "why"? Perhaps I know that around that time Japan is wide awake and that's when I receive emails. Maybe I'm just nervous. Yeah. Who knows? It is scary but it's also incredible. Here I am going to go travel to a whole new country and come back considering it a home. The thought of being somewhere new both excites and frights me. I know it'll be fun and something that I would regret saying no to. I have come this far so why stop now? If y'all want to be an exchange student I suggest you should. It's scary but really cool. Rotary is very kind and helpful. So far I have received nothing but love, kind, and patience. Anyways, it's kinda late and I will be waking up at three again…so good night. If you read this in the morning, good morning. If you read this during the day, good afternoon. Sayonara!
I mentioned before on some blogs of mine about the company that works with Rotary to make sure students get to the country they are needed for the exchange. The company, I do not really know if its a company or organization, is Tzell. Things have been going a little slowly for my exchange and departure date. It is really nervousing, my laptop tells me thats not a word, to be going a bit slow because I feel like I messed up. I felt that I was doing something wrong and everything was falling apart. I knew I shouldn't be thinking this because Rotary and Tzell have done this many times. They are amazing and are great and will continue to be great at what they do. I was so nervous because I did not know anything about my flight. All I could think was about my flight already having passed. Could I have missed the day I was supposed to leave? So much in my head. I'm not the type to ask for help to people because I feel like a bother. I'm told by many, even today I was told, that I am not bothersome. I have to get that thought out of my head. If there is something that I wanted to ask or know I had to speak. Doing this is difficult for me because its all i think when I talk to someone. "Elizabeth, you're talking too much. They don't want to hear you anymore." "Elizabeth, really? Don't you think you're being annoying? Look at them. They don't even want to speak with you." These thoughts go through my head. The person I talked to today told me that I had to step up. I had to have myself heard. Letting out my nervousness on the phone helped out. It was all out and resulted in me getting a bit more calm and confident that everything was going to be okay. In the end, there was something missing. There were some documents that had to be mailed to Tzell that I still had. I was unaware and untold that they were needed. If Tzell had never been contacted I probably really could have missed my flight. I still don't know when I will leave exactly but its soon. The days are getting closer and my stomach is winding itself up more. Can't wait to see you soon Japan! Sayonara minna! (goodbye everyone)
Once again I have failed on blogging daily. I've seen other student blogs and they seem to be doing a whole lot better than I have. Perhaps I am just too lazy...? Well, school is going to start tomorrow for those in my area, Logansport. It will be quiet in the house being all alone. I won't be at school and it feels weird. Perhaps I could drop by the school? Is that even allowed? I don't know. Good luck to those entering another year of not only school but another year of seeing how much you can accomplish. To those who this year will be their last, make it big. To those who will begin taking many tests, you can do it! to those who are figuring out who they are, you will figure it out. To those who are just barely making it by, you can keep going. To those who are studying for what they want to be in life, you keep studying and do what you enjoy. Good luck to you all. Hoep you have a great year! Sayonara!
So, I actually managed to write a second time within a week and not a month. Don't really know what to say other than the whole fact that I am still here. Not here in America but you know, like alive and remembering that I have a blog. Yeah, I kept forgetting I had a blog and ended up not ever writing. I should be writing everyday though. I wont have the habit of blogging once I get to Japan and y'all won't know what I am up to. So, I better start the habit now and not when it is too late. The number of days are going down. The timer in the distance is ticking away. Tic tic tic tic tic tic tic. Should I do this? I don't know. Its the beginning of something. It's too late to be asking if I should do this. To be honest, I don't really have to question myself. I love to travel and have adventures. I have even thought about dropping out of high school to just travel, but I came back to reality and asked myself how I would travel with no education. No education equals no money. Travelling is something that I could do for the rest of my life. Now that I have the opportunity, why should I back out? I don't want to end up regretting it later if I back out now. Its a big fear. Regretting. Many of the times when I feel terrible or something could've gone better was because I did NOT do anything and ended up regretting. Do something now and not wait until you regret not doing it. Sayonara...
my fears. (Mulan reference) If I am going to be honest with you all, then I have to be honest. I am scared. I had a difficult time sleeping last night. It hit me that it was August. August...Augus...Au...its already AUGUST!!! "So...what about it, Elizabeth?". In less than a month I will no longer be in the USA. No longer will I be sleeping on the same bed I am used to. No longer will I be seeing the same views. No longer will I be an American. Or at least that is how I see it. Yeah, I'm excited but I am also scared. Back to last night that I mentioned up top^. August hit me. I was sitting on my bed leaning my head on the wall. I just sat there and stared. Don't know for how long but I just staaaaaarrreed. Were thoughts going around my head? No, not really. My mind was blank. Nothing was going on. There were no noises. It was just me, a wall being stared at or whatever, sleeping family, and then my luggage. After staring at whatever I was, I noticed my luggage. In those suitcases it had the future. Sounds odd but what I mean is that what I am putting in my luggage is what will go to Japan. Yeah, that really didn't help. It makes sense in my head. Good luck getting it out of my head to understand. Anyways, the day is coming up pretty fast. I remember back in the beginning it was too slow and I wanted the days to hurry up. Now? The days are going too fast. Well, I don't know. Point is, it's almost time to say bye. For now. I was supposed to blog more last week but I had to get ready for a youth event for the weekend. Until next time! Jane! (See you later)